Hello dear sweet friends - I sure have missed you and being here in cyberland. It feels strange but exciting being back on my blog - I seem to have lost some of my rhythm but hoping things will fall into place quickly. I never thought two weeks could feel like two months but it sure has.
It feels so good to be back and I can't even begin to tell you how excited I am it is 2013. I woke up this morning feeling happy, and excited its a new year full of new and exciting opportunities. I know it probably sounds strange but it's like the load of 2012 has been replaced with the excitement of so many new opportunities ahead of me. I am not saying things will all be perfect, easy or without a lot of hard work but I have never had the beginning of a new year feel this way. It's like I am finally able to tackle what needs to be done in front of me not only physically but emotionally and spiritually. I think some where along the way I may have lost some HOPE and I haven't felt that in a very long time. So much loss
Maybe its because these last two weeks forced me to rest and do nothing. I have spent a lot of time in my doctors office but it has also given me time to rest, sleep, read, pray and really think about where I want to go with the rest of my life. I am working with my doctor on getting my health back on track. I will be able to finally get some counseling that I have been begging to get for almost two years now. I have been able to read which is so healing and encouraging for me. I have been screaming for help for two years and I have finally been heard and all it took was a melt down in the doctors office. The amazing part about hitting rock bottom is there is no place to go but up and its UP UP UP I will be going and I am so EXCITED. I have never been one to sit on the sidelines and allow life to pass me by but all the losses and battles finally took its toll on me. There is one extremely important lesson I learned from all of this and that is:
It's okay (and a sign of strength) to ask for HELP. To tell someone things aren't okay and I don't know what to do or where to go or how to get there. It was overwhelming. I have always been able to stand on my own two feet and been fiercely independent but never had the courage to say I NEED HELP!!! And it's sad it has taken me so long to realize that - but what's important is I have and its like the elephant that has been sitting on my chest has lost a lot of weight. I can breathe easier and I am so incredibly excited about the journey. And I never gave up - I kept asking until someone finally heard me and I am finally moving forward and not stuck in place. That is such an incredible feeling.
Anyway - I have lots more to share as we begin this new year but it's time for this weeks challenge with Tuesday Alchemy. I really didn't have time to put anything together but I came across this album I had put together a couple of years ago. This album is 3" x 5". It was decorated on the outside but blank on the inside. And it was perfect for this weeks challenge!!! And so this little album will be a work in progress throughout this year but I have done a few simple pages to help me get started. It's about my goals, hopes and dreams for 2013 and perfect for this weeks challenge. We have two wonderful sponsors and they are:
Guylou's Inimitability - $10.00 Gift Certificate
Bugaboo - 7 Digital Images
So please jump in and join us and you could be one of the winners. What are your hopes and dreams or resolutions for 2013??? I would love if you would share one or two of them with me in your comments here on my blog. And of course I would love to see what you create and share with us at Tuesday Alchemy. The design team has some great projects for this challenge and you can find each of their blog links on the Tuesday Alchemy on the left side.
Thanks so much for your kind words of encouragement - it really means the world to me.
Hugs and smiles always
Laine
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Hi Laine,
ReplyDeleteI wanted to come over and say Hi. I'm sorry to hear that life has been such a struggle for you but am very happy to hear that you seem to be headed in the right direction now. I wish you continued success on your journey towards health and look forward to getting to know you better through our association as DT members for TA.
Best wishes for the New Year!
Lisa D.
Hi Laine
ReplyDeleteI think sometimes we all hit this place where we never ask for help but carry on until you just can't do it anymore. Then when we finally break and have the courage to ask for that help, because it does take courage to do just that. Then we can start that return journey to the person we used to be or sometimes an even better person. I am sending all my hugs and encouragement that I can send you - here is to a 2013 that gives us all the courage to show everyone the person that we truly are. Hugs my friend, Karon.
Hi Laine
ReplyDeleteOh WOW, you really poured your heart to us. Your post feels full of energy and positivity (it almost rubbed on me). I am glad you struck gold so to speak and someone finally heard you and offered to help you. It has not happened to me yet in 12 years of my suffering and no matter how many melt downs I have and have had in the past and no matter how many times I have asked for help nobody seems to give a flying monkey. It's just me, myself, I, pain and depression and that's it. It's like the rest of the world is not just there for some of us when we need it ( you probably know yourself very well how hard is to achieve anyone to listen and to take any notice) . I hope this year brings all the best for you and you can start living a balanced life.
Happy New Year!
Michaela xx
oh Laine I really feel so honoured that you have shared your life like this with us all. ~I really love your project and as always it is so inspiring only this time not only is the art inspiring but your hopes and goals are too. I will pray that this year is a wonderful year for you and that you find the strength needed to complete all those hopes and dreams.
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shelley xxx
Hi Laine, been wondering where you've been. SO sorry to hear of your troubles, but I'm so glad you're feeling better and are back on track. You're right - there's no shame in asking for help, and thank God you did. I am so happy that things are looking up for you and so looking forward to seeing more of your work/play again. I love your projects, and this one is no exception. LOVE this little album and it inspires me to make one for a gift, maybe not for New Year's, but it lends itself to so many possibilities. Happy New Year, Sweetie, and here's to an UP UP UP year for you!! (P.S. I sent you a thank-you email a few weeks ago and hope you received it. :) )
ReplyDeleteSo good to see you again, though I must apologize myself for having been MIA. All the holiday travel really took away from my blog visiting time. I think things are finally settling back into a routine and I'll be around more. In the meantime, I love your attitude of gratitude about 2013, and I share the same positive hopes and dreams. Hugs, my friend.
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