Hello dear sweet friends - I sure have missed you and being here in cyberland. It feels strange but exciting being back on my blog - I seem to have lost some of my rhythm but hoping things will fall into place quickly. I never thought two weeks could feel like two months but it sure has.
It feels so good to be back and I can't even begin to tell you how excited I am it is 2013. I woke up this morning feeling happy, and excited its a new year full of new and exciting opportunities. I know it probably sounds strange but it's like the load of 2012 has been replaced with the excitement of so many new opportunities ahead of me. I am not saying things will all be perfect, easy or without a lot of hard work but I have never had the beginning of a new year feel this way. It's like I am finally able to tackle what needs to be done in front of me not only physically but emotionally and spiritually. I think some where along the way I may have lost some HOPE and I haven't felt that in a very long time. So much loss
Maybe its because these last two weeks forced me to rest and do nothing. I have spent a lot of time in my doctors office but it has also given me time to rest, sleep, read, pray and really think about where I want to go with the rest of my life. I am working with my doctor on getting my health back on track. I will be able to finally get some counseling that I have been begging to get for almost two years now. I have been able to read which is so healing and encouraging for me. I have been screaming for help for two years and I have finally been heard and all it took was a melt down in the doctors office. The amazing part about hitting rock bottom is there is no place to go but up and its UP UP UP I will be going and I am so EXCITED. I have never been one to sit on the sidelines and allow life to pass me by but all the losses and battles finally took its toll on me. There is one extremely important lesson I learned from all of this and that is:
It's okay (and a sign of strength) to ask for HELP. To tell someone things aren't okay and I don't know what to do or where to go or how to get there. It was overwhelming. I have always been able to stand on my own two feet and been fiercely independent but never had the courage to say I NEED HELP!!! And it's sad it has taken me so long to realize that - but what's important is I have and its like the elephant that has been sitting on my chest has lost a lot of weight. I can breathe easier and I am so incredibly excited about the journey. And I never gave up - I kept asking until someone finally heard me and I am finally moving forward and not stuck in place. That is such an incredible feeling.
Anyway - I have lots more to share as we begin this new year but it's time for this weeks challenge with Tuesday Alchemy. I really didn't have time to put anything together but I came across this album I had put together a couple of years ago. This album is 3" x 5". It was decorated on the outside but blank on the inside. And it was perfect for this weeks challenge!!! And so this little album will be a work in progress throughout this year but I have done a few simple pages to help me get started. It's about my goals, hopes and dreams for 2013 and perfect for this weeks challenge. We have two wonderful sponsors and they are:
Guylou's Inimitability - $10.00 Gift Certificate
Bugaboo - 7 Digital Images
So please jump in and join us and you could be one of the winners. What are your hopes and dreams or resolutions for 2013??? I would love if you would share one or two of them with me in your comments here on my blog. And of course I would love to see what you create and share with us at Tuesday Alchemy. The design team has some great projects for this challenge and you can find each of their blog links on the Tuesday Alchemy on the left side.
Thanks so much for your kind words of encouragement - it really means the world to me.
Hugs and smiles always